I remember when I first came home from the hospital, there was a litany of people coming to help. I know I am so blessed with family and friends; I think it was months before I was alone. My dear friend William came to stay, I love him – we get very silly when were…
Here I go again, off on a trip. As soon as the ticket was booked, I became anxious. I felt that feeling of having my feet nailed to the floor. The good news is that I’m nearly packed, the day before the trip, unlike last time. I must get used to getting out of my…
Home from vacation six days ago. As far as cooking a second night; I was going to make crab cakes, after the sliders I thought it best not to do the crab cakes. It was so hard to manage the stress of cooking for 16. My family was fine with that – plus, crab is…
The vacation is going well. Though my anxiety is creeping in periodically. Today, I wanted to make dinner. I was making these good beef sliders with pickled vegetables and Siracha Aioli. Very ingredient and labor-intensive. I have a hard time with this recipe before I had the stroke. But I wanted to make them because…
I leave for a family vacation today. I’m not packed. I’m not excited. It was my idea and yet I feel like my feet are nailed to the ground. This is new – not wanting to have to change my environment. I know where all the steps are in my house, where all the little…
When I first came home from the hospital, I was shocked at how much I cried, (I’m not normally a crier, well except for things like weddings and saying goodbye to colleagues or speaking from my heart). And, how suddenly it would happen. I could be watching TV and I would be overwhelmed with tears,…
Remember the movie “Phenomenon”? John Travolta plays a character named George; he’s sort of dim-witted. The beginning of the film is George trying to keep a rabbit (or some sort of animal), out of his garden by putting a fence around the garden. But the rabbit still seems to be able to get in and…
After I quit working, my eldest sibling had fallen ill and passed away in December of 2019. 2020 is kind of a blur to me. Though I did continue the drum lessons I had started before the stroke, I found it was good to keep my brain active. I also started teaching myself how to…
The rehabilitation after the stroke was odd to me. In my brain, I could do it all–my body and brain were not working together. The occupational therapist gave me math problems/games to do. In my mind I was doing them correctly, on paper it was a different story. And of course, in my mind I felt like I…