Sticktuitivness

I did it!  On Monday, I took an Uber to the meeting house, went in, introduced myself as being new to the Club House.  I was very proud of myself.  It was a huge step for me.  As I anticipated, the white cane does put people off a bit, but I’m okay with that, they’ll get to know me eventually. 

I also walked home from the meeting, about three miles. It’s treacherous for pedestrians in Atlanta! I was talking to one of my wonderful sisters on the way back and took a wrong turn, so…I’ve learned I can’t be distracted while walking.

I’ve also started back to physical therapy and occupational therapy, so it’s been a busy couple of weeks, interlaced with doctors’ appointments and a swallow test.

Last night I couldn’t get to sleep.  My mind was racing, I’m not sure about what, but today my brain feels like it did a thousand pushups.  I’m exhausted, not my body but my brain.  I wonder when it will go away. 

Perhaps I’ve taken on too much too fast?  The PT, OT, and getting back to meetings all at the same time.  I guess I’ll do my best and hope I can get my brain to step it up a bit.  Ashley said this morning that cognitive-behavioral therapy would help this issue.  I had spoken to a neurological therapist a few months ago, she felt I was doing all the right things, all the things she would tell me to do.  So, perhaps I’ll stick with what I’m doing and see how it goes.  Ashley is rarely wrong, so I need to keep that in my back pocket.

Stroke recovery is hard.  I’ve been through a lot of health issues, some life-threatening, over the last forty years.  This is hard.  There is no pill, there is no remedy except, for time and effort.

I think I’ll keep moving forward the best I can.