Disappointment

Today I started the process of dissolving my business.  I feel defeated by the stroke sometimes, but I can’t fully blame the stroke.  I had about six years prior to the stroke to develop and get it up and running.  It’s still a viable product, I just don’t have the wherewithal to sell it. 

Really the truth is, I don’t want to let down my investors.  Knowing I can’t control that any longer is a big step, one I need to take. 

Whenever I field questions regarding the product/company by anyone, my brain gets exhausted.  Like after hitting five buckets of balls at the driving range, you can’t lift your arms they’re so heavy. 

I’m lucky to know, they may be disappointed, but I will be forgiven.  We were all taking a chance.  Hoping for a good result.  I’m lucky people believed in me.  I need to find humility in this scenario. Know that I’ve done my best, I tried my hardest and I learned a lot.

I also know this tangled web of post-stroke life is hard.  Finding my footing where I can, as best I can, is all I can do…and some days that feels nearly impossible.